Embracing My Journey to Become a Better Version of Myself

So much of our time or my time anyways is making sure those around me are happy and insuring they have what they need to be their best, that is a lot of work. Many times, I forget, my own happiness and well-being should be at the very top of the list. It is impossible to pour goodness and joy into others when your cup is empty.

How is my cup empty you ask.... let me tell you. It doesn't matter if you are a half empty or half full personally if the people you surround yourself with lift you up or tear you down you will unknowingly reflect those traits. I am able to say this because it happened to me this weekend, I caught myself saying and reacting negatively, things I would have never entertained period. It wasn't until my friend asked "what has you so uptight? Why are you being so hard on her?"

After much thought and self-reflection, it was my own choices of the people I had surrounded myself with, no this does not make them bad people, it just makes them the wrong people to share my time with. Toxic is toxic, there is no other way to put it. It's like that saying, "Lay with dogs with fleas and you will get fleas also."

So yesterday and today, I have done a lot of self-reflection and of course apologizing for my bad behavior. This does not make it okay for the words that come out of our mouths sometimes cannot be forgiven or replace the hurt they may have caused. It can however change our own actions and make us aware that all we surround ourselves with matters.

I'm just me...a sinner, I was not born perfect and make mistakes, poor decisions, and sometimes bad behavior happens, what makes me different is I know Jesus died on the cross for me, so I can knell at his feet confess my transgressions, ask for forgiveness, wake up in the morning and start fresh and continue working on the person he has created me to be.

So here is to a new day.

God bless you all!!!

Much Love